Breezes Good Bye

"Misty?"
"Misty!?"
"Misty where are you!!!"

"Fuck there is to many people here, I will never find her!"

"Misty!!!"
"Babbbbyyyy!!!!"

The beat of the music thundered harder and harder as it got louder. I could barely keep my train of thought through the panic mode I was in. It was my decision to go to this beach club with her. My hands were jirating and my teeth were clenching. My mind started to race off track as a migraine of sadness was forming. I could not find her in this club. I mean I wanted to go here cause it was by the beach and I thought it would be romantic to dance with her. "Oh baby, I am so sorry." I did not know what do. I could not find my girlfriend at all. All I could think about was the red blouse with accented creases down her slender figured body. She wore it tonight, and I could not find one girl with a red blouse on, let alone long hair. I started to feel all the memories of here rushthrough my mind like a tape being stuck on rewind. Every morning I would see her face as every morning we would walk to the docks. We lived right by the beach and when we would stand hand and hand in the morning dew. I would hold her tight to my chest feeling as if it was just me and her that existed in the vast world. I held her so close to me to keep her safe and warm as the water morning breezes would rush towards us.
That was just a memory now I guess. I could not see her or anything. I did not want that memory to fade like how people say it does when you don't see a person after a while. I did not want that feeling.
I started to push my way through the crowd and noise escalated as I got further and further in the club.
I just went to the bathroom for a moment and she was gone.
My heart was beating out of precusion and I did not even notice a man spilled his drink on me as I pushed him aside as I searched the place. My life felt like it was spiraling to an end in a brief moment.
Then I decided to step outside to see if she was there, but nothing. It had already been two hours at the club without her. I call her phone endlessly and got her message machine I think a million times leaving on going messages in rapid panic. I then decided to call the police after searching the beach in the back and the front and back of the club inside and out. They told me to report her missing in a 24 hour notice. So I went home alone tonight. I sat there in the hallway of our home and waited for the hours to pass so I could report her missing.
The whole time I called her phone till it came to the point where a machine voice said the message box was full.
I called the police in the afternoon of the next day sitting in the same place outside the club on the curb. I told them where we were last and where I was now. They came and did a search and found nothing and told me they would get back to me if they found any suspects.
The week went by in a universe of the most slowest time to possibly conceive of. I was in the same clothes I wore the day I lost her. I did not want to shower off the night, for I still felt it in my veins. I kept the phone clutched in my hand day after day. Looking at the screen for any remorse to take away the pain I was feeling. The agony I was going though.
The phone was answered in the late afternoon. The police wanted me to come down to the station. They had news for me.
I rushed down there with nervous disorder that erupted with a jolt. I got to the station and a man as tall as me came up to me and told me to follow him into a room. He sat me down, and as he was speaking in a low tone, my face sank to my heart. My heart shriveled and fell deep in the ground as he uttered that my girlfiend was dead. My fiance was dead. She was gone.
He told me she was kidnapped and taken to the far end of the beach. They found her body with strangel marks on her throat and bruises on her nude body. They said that she was raped and choked to death. I could not even discuss how I felt so low at that moment and moments after. I did not even know if I was alive now. They could not figure out who even did it. There was no dna found to trace the suspects. I did not even care anymore. She was gone, and she was all I wanted. Now I felt just as strangled to.

After I left the station I made my way to the beach where they said they found her. As I walked up I saw her, her figure in a blurr of memory. She was wearing the cloak around her body that she wore every morning. I swear I felt like I was actually seeing her. She was just a silhouette of the girlfriend I lost. "Misty baby!" I yelled out through the beaches sands and waves that surrounded me. I then just stood there alone looking out to the loss that will forever sing though my soul. It hurt this pain. It hurt so much, god please take it away. But he didn't.
A strong breeze all of a sudden sifts through my hand and for some reason I believed it was her hand twining in mine again. As she whispered her last good bye to me. I whispered back, "I love you to baby."



Breezes Good Bye

The mist flew through my heart,
You went without me far apart,
Me and you together,
Is now no longer forever,
You were my angel and breeze,
Now I feel nothing as the pain has brought me to my knees,
Good by you whispered to me,
Until then my soul was let free,
Breezes good by,
You now may fly.