"I love you sweetie, and don't open the door to anyone, okay baby!"
"Okay mommy."
"Goodnight sweetie."
"By mommy!"
"By my precious! mwwwa!"
"Mwaaa mommy! Your so silly mommy!"
"Your sillier hun, now go to sleep baby, and ill be back in a few hours."
"Okay mommy."
The door closed and she left to the front door and locked it. She went to her car and started to shoot up the powder that made her forget what a horrible person she was for doing this.
She then sat there and took in the rush of relaxed and calm feelings that the dust gave her. She looked out her car window and saw the broken up apartment she lived in. She saw the leaks that were inside and out and the broken sidewalk cracks and trash that made it even better. She sighed and started up the car with a reassurance with the coke in her system that she could go now.
Off she drove to the walk, or her work. She took off her jacket when she got there and stepped out her car and saw him. He looked at her and told her to take off her shirt that she had over another shirt. She said it was cold but he insisted. She took it off with hesitation. Then he told her to take east. She stepped in a walk far from any other woman who walk. She had a confidence, but maybe to much confidence. She then saw a customer. She came up to the red car and asked if they needed any help for tonight.
She could barely see in the car, it was mostly shadows. A rough mans voice said yes. She then looked at her boss and gave him the nudge and went into the car with them. They grabbed her at her hips and pulled her into the car. Two men told her they are going to go to there house to do this. She told theme okay.
When they got there she asked what they wanted and how. She did all her orders as told, with even getting hit for not doing it right.
They payed her less then what was asked for, for her mistake. She could not even cry or yell, for she would probably get in trouble as well. When they dropped her off, she got thrown out of the car and landed on the street pave. She got up and saw him. She walked over and gave him the money.
He looked at her in disgust and punched her to where she slung back onto the pave from which she came. She struck a tear, but that was all. She stayed on the ground till he threw a dollar at her. Just one dollar. She asked if she could at least have one more. He told her she should have worked for it more. She then did more pick ups and got the money that was asked of her. She then took her car and drove back home.She stayed in her car when she came to the parking space. She looked out her window and saw nothing. She took the white and sniffed it dry. Her thoughts that buried in back of her mind were always, "Will I make it tomorrow? What will happen to my baby?"
She did this for her baby girl, she had no other alternative. She had no family but her pimp. She did not even know the babies dad. She did not even know herself. She did not know any other way though. She was already a convict. She got into this when she was young and after that there was no turning back.
She went back into the house with her eye bruised and laid on the bed next to her daughter. She laid awake wondering if she should close her eyes. Wondering why she should go onto the next day.
She did this everyday, leaving her child alone at night. She was in pain inside and out.
One day when she was at the block and he told her to take this big black truck that was at the far end of the walk. She head over and there was three guys, all heavy set and wanted only her. She head into the car and was took to a hotel. These guys did everything with her and payed her all the money. She got back and did not get hit this time and had gotten a fair share.
She was happy tonight and head home without even taking a sniff. She snuck in bed with her baby and kissed her on her forehead.
It was the next night and she strapped on her heals and curled her hair. Her daughter asked her why she puts on the heals. She said to make mommy taller baby.
She laughed and said she loved her. Then she tucked her in her bed and locked the front door behind her. She then came to the corner again. She saw him and he told her to wait for business this time. She stood with confidence and seduction. Then she immediately saw the same truck as last night heading down the street towards her. Then her face went blank and mind rushed to nothing. A man that was with her last night had a gun. Within a second her body was on the ground and her head hallowed back. 
She was gone and so was a daughters mom. The men were police and could not have reputation. They just wanted to have a fun night. 
Her daughter was left alone, till she eventually called for help.Baby Girl
So much to take on,
Baby girl I am gone,
I wish I was better for you,
I just did not know what else to do,
You were the only thing that kept me going,
Things that were for your not knowing,
Please sweetie I want you to keep,
Me in your heart, as I leave in your sleep,
I kiss you good bye baby girl,
Cause mommy needs to go now beyond the hill.
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